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Defining Time
By Carl Dennis If it's like a river, the current is too much for us, Sweeping us past a moment we're still not used to Out to the void of the not-yet-come. Should we resist, wherever we are, Or be reconciled? It seems to bring us gifts. Each day Arrives as a fresh basket of bread. Our right hand no longer can touch our left Around the girth of our Buddha bellies. How can that be if the minutes of the day are fish Nibbling away at us till our bones show through, Nibbling away at our friends, our houses? Let's try to ignore it, whatever it is, As we do the thin air of the Himalayas When we climb, breathless, to pray for enlightenment. Can we really ignore its earthly mass As it lies between us and the thing we hope for? A long wait till the train goes by And we can cross the tracks into the evening, Our favorite time. At last we're walking after dinner On our ritual mile to the great magnolia. There it is, glimmering at the end of the field. Just a handful of whatever time is And we'll be standing beneath its branches Looking back at the poplars we're passing now. How young we were back there, we'll say, How confused and moody in that early era. We need more time to consider it, More than the dole allowed us at any moment, The nickels and dimes. We need to unfold time on the table like a map, With the years gone and the years to come Colored as vividly as the moment, Proving how little it means to say Time has gone by, passed through us Or around us, and left us old. ----- A CHANCE FOR THE SOUL By Carl Dennis Am I leading the life that my soul, Mortal or not, wants me to lead is a question That seems at least as meaningful as the question Am I leading the life I want to live, Given the vagueness of the pronoun "I," The number of things it wants at any moment. Fictive or not, the soul asks for a few things only, If not just one. So life would be clearer If it weren't so silent, inaudible Even here in the yard an hour past sundown When the pair of cardinals and crowd of starlings Have settled down for the night in the poplars. Have I planted the seed of my talent in fertile soil? Have I watered and trimmed the sapling? Do birds nest in my canopy? Do I throw a shade Others might find inviting? These are some handy metaphors The soul is free to use if it finds itself Unwilling to speak directly for reasons beyond me, Assuming it's eager to be of service. Now the moon, rising above the branches, Offers itself to my soul as a double, Its scarred face an image of the disappointment I'm ready to say I've caused if the soul Names the particulars and suggests amendments. So fine are the threads that the moon Uses to tug at the ocean that Galileo himself Couldn't imagine them. He tried to explain the tides By the earth's momentum as yesterday I tried to explain my early waking Three hours before dawn by street noise. Now I'm ready to posit a tug Or nudge from the soul. Some insight Too important to be put off till morning Might have been mine if I'd opened myself To the occasion as now I do. Here's a chance for the soul to fit its truth To a world of yards, moons, poplars, and starlings, To resist the fear that to talk my language Means to be shoehorned into my perspective Till it thinks as I do, narrowly. "Be brave, Soul," I want to say to encourage it. "Your student, however slow, is willing, The only student you'll ever have." ------------------------ The God Who Loves You By Carl Dennis It must be troubling for the god who loves you To ponder how much happier you'd be today Had you been able to glimpse your many futures. It must be painful for him to watch you on Friday evenings Driving home from the office, content with your week? Three fine houses sold to deserving families? Knowing as he does exactly what would have happened Had you gone to your second choice for college, Knowing the roommate you'd have been allotted Whose ardent opinions on painting and music Would have kindled in you a lifelong passion. A life thirty points above the life you're living On any scale of satisfaction. And every point A thorn in the side of the god who loves you. You don't want that, a large-souled man like you Who tries to withhold from your wife the day's disappointments So she can save her empathy for the children. And would you want this god to compare your wife With the woman you were destined to meet on the other campus? It hurts you to think of him ranking the conversation You'd have enjoyed over there higher in insight Than the conversation you're used to. And think how this loving god would feel Knowing that the man next in line for your wife Would have pleased her more than you ever will Even on your best days, when you really try. Can you sleep at night believing a god like that Is pacing his cloudy bedroom, harassed by alternatives You're spared by ignorance? The difference between what is And what could have been will remain alive for him Even after you cease existing, after you catch a chill Running out in the snow for the morning paper, Losing eleven years that the god who loves you Will feel compelled to imagine scene by scene Unless you come to the rescue by imagining him No wiser than you are, no god at all, only a friend No closer than the actual friend you made at college, The one you haven't written in months. Sit down tonight And write him about the life you can talk about With a claim to authority, the life you've witnessed, Which for all you know is the life you've chosen. -------------------- To Reason By Carl Dennis Reason, I hope I never speak ill of you, Dependable homely friend who prods me gently To turn to the hour that's now arriving, Not to the hour I let slip by Twenty years back. No way now, you say, To welcome a friend I failed to welcome When she returned to town in sorrow; Fresh from her discovery that the man Who'd seemed to burn with the brightest flame Could show a darker side as well. You're right to label it magical thinking When I say to a phantom what I never said To flesh and blood, as if the words, repeated enough, Could somehow work their way back to an old page And nudge the silence aside and settle in, A delusion not appropriate for a man no longer young At the end of a century where many nations Have set many things in motion they can't call back Though the vote for reversal is unanimous. I'm glad you ask, clear-sighted Reason, Before what audience, if my speech can't reach her ears, I imagine myself performing. Who is it I want to convince I'd do things differently This time around if the chance were offered. You're right to say that half an hour a day is enough For these gods or angels to get the point If they're ever going to get it, which is doubtful. Right again that if part of myself After all my efforts still needs convincing I should leave that dullard behind With the empty dream of wholeness and move on. I should move along the road that is not the road I'd be moving along had I said what I didn't say To someone who might have been ready to listen, But a road as good, you assure me, Reason, One that might lead to a life I can be proud of So the man I might have been can't pity me. Thanks for arguing I can solve the problems He may have wanted to solve but hadn't the time for; Being, as he was, preoccupied With the life I would be living Had I been ready long ago. --------------------- Distinctions By Carl Dennis The world will be no different if the twin sisters Disputing now in the linen aisle of Kaufman’s Resolve their difference about table napkins, Whether the color chosen by one is violet Or lavender or washed-out purple. No different, But that’s no reason to deem the talk insignificant. It’s important for people to make distinctions, To want their words to fit appearances snugly. Why wait to get home before they decide if the napkins Match the plates Grandmother gave them years back For their twentieth birthday. A pleasure to hear them, Like the pleasure hearing people in a museum Discuss how closely the landscape approaches In their experience the best of the Renaissance Or would if the paint hadn’t cracked in spots And darkened. Should they deem it fine or very fine Or remarkable? The world no different but the subject Not insignificant, the whereabouts of the beautiful, Just how near it lies to the moment According to a measurement all can agree on. That was a beautiful conversation last night About Vermeer though my friend Ramona Went off on a tangent, hammering home her theory As to why he never painted his wife or children. Could be she was feeling resentful she’s only third On her husband’s selective roster of women Who’ve left the deepest marks on his character. But this morning she may be asking herself what right She has to complain when he’s second on hers, Below the passionate man she walked away from, Whose curtain lectures on the plight of Cambodia Bored her silly. No joy for her, back then, In loving a man whose conscience burdened itself With the crimes of others, not simply his own. Now it seems she lost out on a lucky chance To widen her heart. However painful that thought It’s useful when she finds herself too satisfied With the life she has, forgetting where it fits exactly On the spectrum of ripeness. Meanwhile, out in her garden, It’s a beautiful morning. The air is a little gritty, Granted, and the low clouds in the west Have lowered its ranking to seven points out of ten On the scale of likely prospects. But that doesn’t mean She can’t make it a ten on the scale of hope, Ten for her willingness to be proven wrong. ---------------------- Reason By Carl Dennis Whatever your limits, you're free of the bias Toward the familiar that the senses and feelings Can't seem to shake off, familiar faces and neighborhoods. You love the laws that are universal, Those that don't change with custom and climate, That shine with the same clarity everywhere. For you it's obvious that the hungry of Madagascar, However remote from the senses and feelings, Are just as needy as the hungry of home. And at the public meeting about the wisdom Of damming the river, you give the waitress As fair a hearing as the banker or judge. It sounds like a good idea, you say, all things considered, To provide the farmers dependable irrigation And the towns down river protection from floods. As for the village or two that must soon Be turned into lake bed, you don't dismiss the nostalgia Flooding the senses and feelings with a scornful "Like it or lump it." You reason with them. This is their chance to prove their detractors mistaken, To choose public good over private convenience. And then you show them the plans of the village You're going to build for them on higher ground, A village of brick, not clapboard, with pleasing lake views. And when they invite you for a farewell stroll At dusk through the streets scheduled for sacrifice, You rearrange your schedule to indulge their whim. As long as they'll work all day in the here and now, You won't reproach them if they sit by the fire all evening And dream of how much softer the light was In the town now lost, how peaceful its busy streets, How joyful. With the evidence out of reach, It's your word against theirs; and for them Repetition will serve as proof. When you go to bed They'll still be wondering what their ghosts will do Now that the only town they've ever wanted to haunt Is closed to all but fishes. And how lonely they'll feel Knowing no generations to come will be sheltered By the same houses that sheltered them. But home for you is wherever the thoughtful few Gather to deliberate and reach a consensus That the wise of any nation would be glad to second. So you must tell yourself when the senses and feelings Complain you've never listened to their opinions, That you've tried to teach them but not to learn. -------------------- Writing at Night By Carl Dennis This empty
feeling
that makes me fearful This feeling
may only
mean that supper’s done This empty
feeling
could be a gift An emptiness
that
betokens a talent for self-forgetting With their
bulky night bags and water jugs. In Paris By Carl Dennis ------------------------------------Today as we walk in Paris I promise to focus Our DeathBy Carl DennisFrom the point of view of the dead, it's likely nothing, The point when friends stop phoning for our opinion Hard to believe the library board meets Tuesday And those still voting our way, listening in the evening The Master of MetaphorBy Carl DennisEven on days when his body seems too heavy And when he wakes in the dark an hour past midnight Prophet By Carl Dennis You'll never be much of a prophet if, when the call comes To preach to Nineveh, you flee on the ship for Tarshish That Jonah fled on, afraid like him of the people's outrage Were they to hear the edict that in thirty days Their city in all its glory will be overthrown. The sea storm that harried Jonah won't harry you. No big fish will be waiting to swallow you whole And keep you down in the dark till your mood Shifts from fear to thankfulness and you want to serve. No. You'll land safe at Tarshish and learn the language And get a job in a countinghouse by the harbor And marry and raise a family you can be proud of In a neighborhood not too rowdy for comfort. If you're going to be a prophet, you must listen the first time. Setting off at sunrise, you can't be disheartened If you arrive at Nineveh long past midnight, On foot, your donkey having run off with your baggage. You'll have to settle for a room in the cheapest hotel And toss all night on the lice-ridden mattress That Jonah is spared. In the space of three sentences He jumps from his donkey, speaks out, and is heeded, while you, Preaching next day in the rain on a noisy corner, Are likely to be ignored, outshouted by old-clothes dealers And fishwives, mocked by schoolboys for your accent. And then it's a week in jail for disturbing the peace. There you'll have time, as you sit in a dungeon Darker than a whale's belly, to ask if the trip Is a big mistake, the heavenly voice mere mood, The mission a fancy. Jonah's biggest complaint Is that God, when the people repent and ask forgiveness, Is glad to forgive them and cancels the doomsday Specified in the prophecy, leaving his prophet To look like a fool. So God takes time to explain How it's wrong to want a city like this one to burn, How a prophet's supposed to redeem the future, Not predict it. But you'll be left with the question Why your city's been spared when nobody's different, Nobody in the soup kitchen you open, Though one or two of the hungriest May be grateful enough for the soup to listen When you talk about turning their lives around. It will be hard to believe these are the saving remnant Kin to the ten just men that would have sufficed To save Gomorrah if Abraham could have found them. You'll have to tell them frankly you can't explain Why Nineveh is still standing though you hope to learn At the feet of a prophet who for all you know May be turning his donkey toward Nineveh even now. ----------------------------------- Improbable Story By Carl Dennis Far from here, in the probable world, The stable reign of the dinosaurs Hasn't been brought to a sudden, unlooked-for end By a billion-to-one crash with an asteroid Ten miles across at impact, or a comet. No dust cloud there darkens the sky Till it snuffs out half the kingdom of vegetation, As it might in a B movie from Hollywood, And half the animal families, The heavy feeders and breathers among them. The dinosaurs rule the roost over there, And the mammals, forced to keep hidden, Only survive as pygmies. No time for the branching That leads to us. None of our lean-tos or igloos, Churches or silos, dot the landscape, No schools or prisons. Not a single porch Where you can sit as you're sitting here Writing to Martha that your fog has lifted, That despite the odds against transformation You've left the age of ambivalence far behind you. Over there, in the probable world, your "yes" Means what it always has, "Who knows?" Your "maybe" means that your doubts are overwhelming. Martha doesn't believe one sentence as she reads In the shade of a willow that could never survive The winter's killer ice storms. No purple martins return In the probable world to the little house you made them, Ready to eat in a week their weight in mosquitoes While Martha completes a letter that over there She'll never be foolish enough to begin. -------------------------- Infidel By Carl Dennis If I chew these sesame seeds slowly, As the book advises, and do my rhythmic breathing, I may end the year comparing myself to Buddha, Thinking of myself as his companion. No more wasting my energy on my will, The will afraid if it ever stopped wanting I’d disappear. Head forward, Shoulders stooped under its sack of ambitions, It butts its way through the crowd. It halts in clearings to count its losses. Now I can turn to meditation and vision If I chew these sesame seeds slowly, Walking behind myself at a saving distance, Glancing around at a world not seen before. Soon I’ll be free to play, to leave my projects behind And wonder what it’s like to be a stone Or a tree, or the dog asleep by the lawn chair, Or the woman in the chair, gray-haired and frail, Knitting a sweater for her daughter’s baby. To be them, and then to leave them. To hope they’re not as stranded in what they are As the blue flowers in the yard at the corner Which seem to keep shouting only one name, Blue flower, blue flower. Just a mouthful of sesame seeds and salt To neutralize the acidity of the blood And maybe in a week or two the fretful yin child Will be a contemplative, joyful yang. And if I can change, my friends can follow If they’re willing to be more flexible And don’t insist, as they have till now, On their own vivid, unchastened perspectives. Strange to love those who resist me, Who block the sidewalk when I go exploring And won’t give ground, who force me To step aside with my ears ringing, My eyes watering, and move on Under awnings that flap their colors As awnings do, under lindens Shaking their leaves as lindens will When they want to refresh themselves In gusts from the mountains, gusts from the sea. -------------------------- "Students" By Carl Dennis A middle aged man inspects the painting That seems to present a boy with a bird and a whale. Though his children, perhaps, have refused his counsel, Though his wife has a lover who borrows money, And his job at the savings-and-loan isn't inspiring, He lays no blame on his country's decline, Or his mother's coldness, or the slope of his chin, But humbly supposes his ignorance does him in. So he looks hard at the painted scene. Maybe the boy with the bird and the whale Would tell him something useful about the soul If only he hadn't neglected his studies. He needs a teacher, he thinks, to help him see, And looking around the room discovers me Looking at him with my sympathetic stare. If he comes this way, I'll have to tell him the truth About the shortage of teachers everywhere. ------------------------- A PRIEST OF HERMES By Carl Dennis The way up, from here to there, may be closed, But the way down, from there to here, still open Wide enough for a slender god like Hermes To slip from the clouds if you give your evenings To learning about the plants under his influence, The winged and wingless creatures, the rocks and metals, And practice his sacred flute or dulcimer. No prayers. Just the effort to make his stay So full of the comforts of home he won't forget it, To build him a shrine he finds congenial, Something as simple as roofed pillars Without the darkness of an interior. If you're lucky, he'll want to sit on the steps Under the stars for as long as you live And sniff the fragrance of wine and barley As it blows from the altar on a salty sea breeze. He'll want, when you die, to offer his services As a guide on the shadowy path to the underworld. Not till you reach the watery crossing Will he leave your side, and even then He'll shout instructions as you slip from your shoes And wade alone into that dark river. ------------------- DEPARTMENT STORE By Carl Dennis "Thou shalt not covet," hardest of the Commandments, Is listed last so the others won’t be neglected. An hour a day of practice is all that anyone Can expect you to spare, and in ten years’ time You may find you’ve outgrown your earlier hankering For your neighbor’s house, though his is brick And yours is clapboard, though his contains a family. Ten years of effort and finally it’s simple justice To reward yourself with a token of self-approval. Stand tall as you linger this evening In the sweater section of Kaufmann’s Department Store By the case for men not afraid of extravagance. All will go well if you hold your focus steady On what’s before you and cast no covetous eye On the middle-aged man across the aisle In women’s accessories as he converses quietly With his teenaged son. The odds are slim They’re going to reach agreement about a gift Likely to please the woman they live with, Not with the clash in what they’re wearing, The father dapper in sport coat and tie, the son Long-haired, with a ring in his ear and a shirt That might have been worn by a Vandal chieftain When he torched a town at the edge of the Empire. This moment you covet is only a truce In a lifelong saga of border warfare While each allows the other with a shake of the head To veto a possibility as they slowly progress From umbrellas to purses, from purses to gloves In search of something bright for the darker moments When the woman realizes her life with them Is the only life she’ll be allotted. It’s only you who assumes the relief on their faces When they hold a scarf to the light and nod Will last. The boy will have long forgotten this moment Years from now when the woman he’s courting Asks him to name a happy time with his dad, A time of peaceable parley amidst the turmoil. So why should you remember? Think how angry You’ll be at yourself tomorrow if you let their purchase Make you unhappy with yours, ashamed Of a sweater on sale that fits you well, Gray-blue, your favorite color. ---------------- PROGRESSIVE HEALTH By Carl Dennis We here at Progressive Health would like to thank you For being one of the generous few who’ve promised To bequeath your vital organs to whoever needs them. Now we’d like to give you the opportunity To step out far in front of the other donors By acting a little sooner than you expected, Tomorrow, to be precise, the day you’re scheduled To come in for your yearly physical. Six patients Are waiting this very minute in intensive care Who will likely die before another liver And spleen and pairs of lungs and kidneys Match theirs as closely as yours do. Twenty years, Maybe more, are left you, granted, but the gain Of these patients might total more than a century. To you, of course, one year of your life means more Than six of theirs, but to no one else, No one as concerned with the general welfare As you’ve claimed to be. As for your poems— The few you may have it in you to finish— Even if we don’t judge them by those you’ve written, Even if we assume you finally stage a breakthrough, It’s doubtful they’ll raise one Lazarus from a grave Metaphoric or literal. But your body is guaranteed To work six wonders. As for the gaps you’ll leave As an aging bachelor in the life of friends, They’ll close far sooner than the open wounds Soon to be left in the hearts of husbands and wives, Parents and children, by the death of the six Who now are failing. Just imagine how grateful They’ll all be when they hear of your grand gesture. Summer and winter they’ll visit your grave, in shifts, For as long as they live, and stoop to tend it, And leave it adorned with flowers or holly wreaths, While your friends, who are just as forgetful As you are, just as liable to be distracted, Will do no more than a makeshift job of upkeep. If the people you’ll see tomorrow pacing the halls Of our crowded facility don’t move you enough, They’ll make you at least uneasy. No happy future Is likely in store for a man like you whose conscience Will ask him to certify every hour from now on Six times as full as it was before, your work Six times as strenuous, your walks in the woods Six times as restorative as anyone else’s. Why be a drudge, staggering to the end of your life Under this crushing burden when, with a single word, You could be a god, one of the few gods Who, when called on, really listens? A Brief Biography of the Poet and an Article
![]() ![]() Carl Dennis' most recent poetry collection, Practical Gods, was awarded the 2002 Pulitzer Prize for poetry. In this collection Dennis throws light on ordinary experiences through metaphor borrowed from religious myth. Despite the fact that the poems revolve around deities (Greek, Roman, Christian, Buddhist, even extra-terrestrial) the language is not that of the sacred but is, instead, pure and simple, the language of a friend speaking to a friend. Thomas Lux has written that "the surfaces of Dennis' poems may seem relatively simple, but always one is drawn beneath that surface to the poem's real depth, to richnesses." Dennis has said that he writes his poetry for what Emerson called "the unknown friend." He does so in a voice that is both humble and introspective, calm and mature, but that allows itself a laugh now and then, sometimes even at its own expense. It is his wry approach to exploring the larger issues of life that makes Dennis' poetry so accessible, so wonderfully human. Previous to his Pulitzer Prize, Dennis was the recipient of the Ruth Lilly Poetry Prize and fellowships from both the Guggenheim Foundation and the National Endowment for the Arts. Dennis earned a PhD from the University of California, Berkeley, and is professor of English at the State University of New York at Buffalo. (Bio Source: http://www.english.ohiou.edu/litfest/dennis.html) CARL DENNIS: Sitting in Emerson's Chair | by Karen Lewis and Jennifer Tappenden | photos by Dellas | drawing by Breverman
Another excellent article on Carl Dennis can be found from the following location: http://www.buffalo.edu/UBT/UBT-archives/21_ubtf02/features/ |
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